hmmmmm,,,,serious ah 

Si EJ xempre

Oh thats was the exact words he said! For over three weeks of no communication, we finally crossed paths again, unexpectedly on the cyberworld

In the channel where we used to hang to, we had a pretty short chat for I was goin home that time he was in...

net: wuzz up
ME: nothin much ; how are yah
net: k lang, kaw
ME: ok lang din
net: gud, kaw ba chapa na ko nimo bah
ME: what? nano diay?
net: ah basta, ginatext ta ka , la jud reply
ME: ah , bago naman ako fon, nawala man gud ang isa
net: ah ok
ME: i did try to text u this afternoon, but no reply
net: bago na ako num
ME: meron lang nagpadala sakin ng business card ZHEDS
net: zheds
ME: heres the num 0920*** sau yan
net: uu
ME: ah ok ...heres my num (dialed zheds num)
net: ah kaw pala yun
ME: yah i did text the num kasi di ko alam kng sino may.ari
net: ok
ME: so sino valentines date natin
net: si EJ siyempre...ikaw
ME: of kors alam mo na yun
net: ok , gud .. you're happy, arent you!
ME: of course I am
net: gud to hear that
ME: I hope u are too
net: yah i am
ME: im hapi for u
net: :)
ME: :)
net: mahal ko na sya dahil mabait eh
ME: thats life
net: in fact he's with me right now
ME: naks
net: yah
ME: sige josh bye na ko, 2:00 na... txt txt ka lang pag my time
ME: wag lang sa umaga dahil nakasun ako
net: ok,,, bye
ME: ingatz...behave ka na
net: uu promise!
ME: gud....sige bye....mwah mwah
ME: lol
net: :)
net :*
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life is simple, ironic it may seem because of the complexities it brought in.

Got new look here...new hairdo, dahil im totally over with something and with someone, kaya nagpagupit! yeheey... a new life of an ironic guy...on the loose...whahahaha,,,sabi ko na nga ba pansamantala lang ang lahat ..lol....hehehe

Remembering the days

Oh as much as i tried to forget whatever happened in my life with the people around me in the past, how could I? when all the places would remind me of the things we used to do, we used to go into, and we used to talk about.

Say for example, everyday Im goin to work and of course I would pass by the Orange Groove Hotel, uh uh! that place again...

Another place would be my net express, everytime i will be here, specially if im near unit no. 20, the past would haunt me again! duh! as if fate is not yet finish with its play, on the channel i would often see that nick close****21 hmmmmm, and jz after I log in, that nick would mack me!! huh!

Another place is when I go to net express Sta Ana, I could pass by the Shuri Videoshop were we used to watched movies which we failed to catch on theaters. The last one was Liberated 2. This movie which I failed to watch because when I tried to ask my girlfriend she refused and i remember we instead watch Ella Enchanted that time. :)

Emcor San Pedro and Kiss Me resto as well as cool guys resto bar would again remind me of the past. Huh!

Another thing that would remind me is when I wore my red cap! I would remember that penshoppe red cap which was snatched from me on xmas eve. Huhuhu. BNY red shirt would also remind something...nah!

Im exhausted whenever the past would haunt me!

Whenever this strange phobia that i have would end, time could only tell.


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Without

Without you baby, my world shattered! duh

my world gets darker each day, but im trying to search the light though

my world gets boring, i dunno why, this is what the consequence of my decision right?

my world is of duh!, why am i telling this to the world,

i have still all the reasons to smile, all the reasons to be jolly

afterall youre only a play

youre only a disguise

youre only a worldy care

duh

whatever

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Message Sending Failed

Duh! my fon was lost a couple of days ago, its because of negligence (read: katangahan) hehehe or it could be that im not yet over with something or someone or whatever. Huh!

For now i will be unattached to my friends and my loveones, oh well, internet, friendster will be the only means for now. WHen shall i be able to purchase a new one, that remains to be seen.

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In A Harry

WHoa! this is an overdue blog for a friend who requested one....hehehe... okay let puts it this way, a friend who wanted to be part of my blog...huh!

Anyways, in one way or another we both connect with each other because we do have common denominator, and that is Bohol!!! Oh yes! He has lived and studied in Bohol on his high school years, and fate would have it for our path gets crossed and befriend each other. nah!

Anyways, as the title would suggest, this one would be a short blog. NOthing more special in it for i dont know what to say and what to write more. Maybe next time when time permits...duh!

and as always


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TRUE
by Ryan Cabrera

**for the one that i left, for you baby**

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true


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naks@! serious!! hehe 

Im in red.... free to love...lol 

Aja!

That's the favorite expression of the lead star in the koreanovela Lovers in Paris... An expression full of hope, signfying strength!

At this point in time, when all i thought, everything was in a good start for me this year. The problem that was haunting me late last year was resolved and yet now, another problem pop up as if the world dont want me to be happy.

Another personal problem, though its not mine really but then it has been added to my already burdensome life for no escape. Huh! AS if i am a superhero to resolve all this things that have tremendously affects my life!

And as always i would carry the spirit of Vivian Kang....Aja!!!!


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One Last Kiss!

The special friendship we shared may be uncommon but then i guess its not what the society accepts, its what two individuals longing for each other. May it be against the norms, needless to say, its what happiness is all about.

But the fantasy , the fairy tale that has been started turned out to be another sad ending for the two of us. The fate is on play again... a rude play i must say.

When you hurt me with your words, i know that you know you were the one who was hurt the most! Hurting me means hurting yourself!!! an unbearable pain within you.

We tried to reconciled only to found out that were not meant to be together for good. Well at least we tried to be there ..haha...weird!

NOw that i decided to leave, i know i hurt you, but just like what you felt when you hurt me, i am hurt the most. THe unbearable pain as you felt now struck my innermost being...whoa!!!

That final meeting! No words were uttered for the first two hours. Only the stares... The eyes communicates with each other, only to end up tears falling down the cheeks.

Then you broke the ice. "So how would you like me to remember you?" ah! twas an intriguing question of goodbye... and answered with the same line " How about u, how would you like me to remember you?"

Silence domained again for the next 30 minutes... and i murmured my answer : "i wud like to be remembered as your friend who tried to save the relationship but fall short upon knowing that it wasnt worth the effort! You tried to define what love means in a different perspective but you know what when i said i love you, it doesnt comes from my heart, but from my lust! fuck!"

"i want you to remember me as your baby no matter what!" hmmmmmmp! too much of a cliche !

wherever you may be, and whoever you will be with, be happy and ill be happy too. I hope you'll be happy for wherever i will be and whoever i will be with...

The the once lovely tandemn was closed and sealed not with the once tender lips but with trembling one associated with the tears that falls down to the lips!

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A touching story that made me teary eyed...

wanna share this with you


Breakfast at McDonald's ....... Please read until the end.


This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through
until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting
facts!):




I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed
my college degree.


The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was
absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human
being had been graced with.


Her last project of the term was called "Smile."


The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document
their reactions.


I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say
hello anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally.


Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son,
and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.
It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.


We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden
everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did.


I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up
inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.




As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and
there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.


As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he
was "smiling". His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light
as he searched for acceptance.


He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been
clutching.


The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend.
I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed
gentleman was his salvation.


I held my tears as I stood there with them.
The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.


He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could
afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they
had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).


Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached
out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I
noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every
action.


I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two
more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the
corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put
the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's
cold hand.


He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Thank you."


I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this
for you. God is here working through me to give you hope."


I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I
sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you
to me, Honey, to give me hope."


We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only
because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.


We are not church goers, but we are believers.


That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.


I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story
in hand.


I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it.


Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?"


I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.


She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings
and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be
healed.


In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my husband,
son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the
last night I spent as a college student.


I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:
UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.


Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may
read this and learn how to LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE
THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.


If you think this story has touched you in any way, please send this
to everyone you know.


There is an Angel sent to watch over you.


In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you
want watched over.


An Angel wrote:

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends
will leave footprints in your heart.


To handle yourself, use your head.


To handle others, use your heart.


God Gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its
nest.


Keep this going.



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Im hurt! Ouch!

01. flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see

02. bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget

03. showing that you care & knowing that they don’t care back

04. finding a way to mend a broken heart

05. learning that you've been used by someone you truly love

06. saying i love you when you mean it and when they don't

07. letting go of a person you've just learned to love

08. realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted

09. realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with

10. waiting for promises you know she or he will never keep

11.admitting your love for someone who loves somebody else

12. reminiscing the good times you shared together

13. shielding your heart from loving somebody

14. trying to hide what you really feel

15. having a commitment with someone that you know would not last

16. trying to hide the tears that voluntarily fall from your eyes

17. sharing the one you love with someone else

18. loving a person too much

19. giving up someone you never thought of giving up

20. falling in love for the first time

21. loving someone you haven't seen

22. having the right love at the wrong time

23. exerting effort to make the relationship last or work

24. not being appreciated when you know you've given your best

25. taking the risk to fall in love again

26. hiding your relationship from someone else

27. controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend

28. choosing between two persons whom you really love

29. finding out that you can never have the person you just let go of

30. seeing the person you love with someone else

31. learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared

32. seeing the one you love fall for someone else

33. falling for your best friend and knowing that things can never be the same again

34. learning to trust after you have been betrayed

35. accepting that it was not meant to be

36. smiling when all you want to do is cry

37. falling and knowing that it can never be

38. not being able to love the person who truly cares for you

39. saying that you can never love a person the way he loves you

40. hearing that he can never love you the way that you love him

41. saying that you are over someone you still love

42. being friends again and learning to let go of each other coz you both know it is better that way

43. convincing oneself that you are not in love when you know that you are

44. having to let go because you know that he deserves someone else

45. trying not to remember how perfect everything used to be


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The YeaR that Was

Ma first blog for the new year 2005. And as it is, i wanna take a look of the year that was so that i may move forward for a bright 2005.

Here it goes.

January - this seem to be the darkest start of the year. Marinel broke it up with me. Hahaha. Kinda good start. Hmmmp... then before the month ended, another pillar in my life broke loose. It fall down as my mother bids adiue to this world. Too bad, i wasnt even there to hug her before she took her last breath. Hahay... I miss you mama. Wherever you may go, i know you're happy now.

February - huhuhuh, i celebrated valentines day alone. Waaaaaa. Nevertheless, i am not after of having a partner anyway at that point in time. I was still hurt...hahaha, as if...naks!

March - Graduation month, my friends are graduating, i remember when i walk the aisle to get that much coveted diploma...huh!

April - Ah time to change myself, but then from the very start, ive been tryin to be good, so nothing much to change, lolz

May - Bohol here i come! Boholanos came home for fiesta.. and im not an exemption! Ah twas a great homecoming, i have renewed my friendship with my old buddies especially Charles...Haha, we had a drinking spree there, and i never expected a revelation from him...im really outdated when it comes to my buddies in bohol since i am now destined in Davao., too bad... I saw ma friend jepoy but never had a chance for chat or a drinking spree perhaps...Hmmmm, almar! my long time buddy now officially establishing a family of his own. And all the ironics that i saw, twas a great vacation really!

June - Hahay, im already a year older, worst, i celebrate it alone, nobody's at home for everybody is at bohol to attend the wedding of my cousin. Hahay.

July - Marks my first year on my work. Huh! twas really a year of exhausting daily routine...duh! Eighty days around the world, hmmmm,,,,oh yeah... i became an official partner of my reign...:)

August - I dont remember anything about august 2004..hahaha

September - Ah my yahoo group turned 1...Yes! IYG aka ironic yahoo group which i created to bridge the distance of the ironic peeps wherever they maybe turns 1 year old. And we had a grand ironic chat which started from 6:00 pm til midnight...What a fun! .. . Ah my cuzn debi turns 18, too bad i wasnt able to attend her debut celebration because we werent able to catch a plane at Cagayan de Oro..huhuh, but anyways, i was also a part of that celebration for i conceptualized and wrote the script for the whole affair...naks!

October - duh! got a sunbuddy star circle questor (eliminated) joie! ahahah...

November - I became an official fucker! hahahaha... I meet my baby josh! and all the rest of my new buddies! namely Bj, Buddy, Robin...Sweetie jive hahaha...naks!

December - new buddies added luster to my already sexually arousing life...hahaha.... Alvin, Jan William Andrew and Carlo ko...naks! Mr. Holy man Raymond taught me a thing or two on how to be holy,,,thanks bro.. sunbuddy leo bro and bench! My mami alona! yeheeey....Avril my love..lolz and laiza2...hehehe...


hahay

another year unfolded, half remembered, half forgotten

and as a new year opens up, im trying to be the best that i can be!


this is your ironicguy bidding goodbye 2004 and saying hello 2005


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